Pathetic Ramblings of a Narcissistic Bitch

Is long distance better than being alone?

2010-04-28T10:46:00.006-04:00

I don't think I can do this too much longer. It's getting to the point of flat out annoyance. Everything about it bugs me and I'm becoming more and more easily agitated. I'm so sick of being single that I don't want to let this go and I don't want to put in the time and energy to actively pursue something else. Do I just sit around and wait for something better to come along? I'm just lazy. And frustrated. And lonely.

xoxo -K

2010-01-27T12:53:00.005-05:00

, originally uploaded by baddyart.

I'm so fucking glad I'm finally over him. I had to let it run it's course. Only took a year. I knew he was bad news all along, but I didn't care. I guess in a way I wanted to get hurt. "I love love. I love being in love. I don't care what it does to me." I kinda like the agony that comes along with it. You need to take the good with the bad, but when the bad outweighs the good by an astronomical amount, it's time to let it go. Oh well, the worst is over now. Moving on to brighter skies and happy endings.

formspring.me

2010-01-07T14:05:00.001-05:00

Ask me anything http://formspring.me/baddyart

When light is all you have, you have it all.

2009-12-09T14:26:00.004-05:00

When light is all you have, you have it all., originally uploaded by AngeIhead.

I've been thinking too much lately. And daydreaming about being in bed. Still being anti-social and focusing on finding happiness. I need to find my power animal. I think it's a hyena.

A Perfect Sunset

2009-11-13T16:13:00.001-05:00

La Casa, originally uploaded by baddyart.

I like where I am at this exact moment in time. Content. Stay like this forever.

One Girl Smokes Pot While Her Friend Watches During an Outing in Cedar Woods near Leakey, Texas.

2009-10-27T10:37:00.005-04:00

One Girl Smokes Pot While Her Friend Watches During an Outing in Cedar Woods near Leakey, Texas., originally uploaded by The U.S. National Archives.

U.S. National Archives’ Local Identifier: 412-DA-12454

Photographer: St. Gil, Marc, 1924-1992

Subjects:
Texas (United States) state
Environmental Protection Agency
Project DOCUMERICA

I love this photo. I initially thought it was taken recently since I've seen a big revival of this style of photography. I think it could easily pass for a picture that was taken yesterday. I also really like that I found it in the flickr page of The U.S. National Archives. How cool is that?!

As for me, things are going pretty good lately. Been trying to surround myself with good people, which helps to keep my mood and temper even. Hanging out with Chuck at home a lot lately; enjoying relaxing and just watching tv and movies (as well as the occasional alcohol intake and recreational drug use). We recently did some much needed grocery shopping and he's been cooking some fabulous meals lately. Work is super busy which is good and I'm happy with my job. I'd say life overall, not too shabby.

Social Distortion

2009-09-22T15:50:00.003-04:00

Social Distortion, originally uploaded by fabio stachi.

I don't know what to do.

2009-09-20T21:34:00.003-04:00

I don't know how to leave you alone when all I want to do is smother you.

Fischer @ the Corpse Fortress

2009-09-10T16:05:00.002-04:00

Fischer @ the Corpse Fortress, originally uploaded by Kris D. Scofield.

Best band there.

Oh no. What have I gotten myself into?

2009-09-02T14:01:00.004-04:00

It just hit me like a ton of bricks. I absolutely, positively cannot stand Jimmy Buffet. So why did I agree to take Dave's extra ticket to the concert tomorrow? Perhaps it was the appeal of the copious amount of alcohol and drugs. Could it have been the lure of tailgating in the parking lot for 4 hours before the concert starts? But, why would I partake in an event which features an artist I can't even remotely tolerate all while being surrounded by old farts in Hawaiian shirts when I could have enjoyed booze and weed in the comfort of my own living room? There is seriously something wrong with me. I am not looking forward to this.

Also: My parents are going. Which isn't necessarily a bad thing, but now my mother is under the impression that all along I've been a secret parrothead and she won't stop calling me. *sigh*

33

2009-09-01T10:32:00.002-04:00

33, originally uploaded by etreh.

Deerhoof - Blue Cash

Deep Summer

2009-08-31T00:05:00.003-04:00

Deep Summer, originally uploaded by Pomegranacat.

Discovered one of my flickr contacts is originally from Virginia and she recently visited Culpeper, which is the town where my parents' live. I was just there earlier today for my Dad's birthday luncheon and admired the scenery on the ride to and from their house. Can't wait til my next photo outing in that direction.

Settled

2009-08-25T09:15:00.003-04:00

So, finally after a month of looking diligently, I've landed myself a new roommate. He moved in last Thursday and so far it's been awesome. We seem to share similar worldly views and interests. He's starting his first teaching position at Stonewall Jackson High School as a math teacher and also went to culinary school, which is totally awesome because he's always cooking and sharing his food. Also, he did some of my yardwork yesterday completely out of the blue! My yard looks less shitty now.

I'm so glad I decided to be patient and wait until I found someone who truly fit my style and personality. I've had enough shitty roommates in my lifetime to learn that valuable lesson. I was really picky and didn't just let the first person who came along sign the lease. Good thing too, cuz I had some real weirdos respond to my ad!

Side note: Been spending a LOT of time at Starbucks lately. Hopefully I can refrain from spending a LOT of money there.

Tom Petty & The Heartbreakers - Even the Losers

ilu

2009-08-17T15:20:00.008-04:00

always, all ways.

Old Mountains

2009-08-14T14:27:00.007-04:00

Old Mountains, originally uploaded by K.

Shoes (Lomo)

2009-08-13T16:52:00.002-04:00

Shoes (Lomo), originally uploaded by ftwentytwo.

2009-08-13T11:13:00.006-04:00

Grizzly Bear - On a Neck, On a Spit

I'm baaaaack in the saddle again!!!!

2009-08-11T22:33:00.006-04:00

That's a lame song. Anyway, I'm dating again. It's good to be back. Had a date on Sunday with this cool chick I met online. We just drove around Nokesville with no destination in mind. Found a couple of farms and got some great captures. I love taking pictures. I even stopped after work to walk through the woods and take pics. Oh, back to my ladyfriend, we got pizza at Tony's after we took pics and then hung out at her place to watch True Blood. Overall a good time A+.

Jeesh, Samantha's right. I think too much like a dude when it comes to sex and dating. I just wanna get laid and have someone totally awesome to hang out with. I hate talking about feelings and emotions. I know I have them, but STFU I don't wanna talk about that SHEIT! Believe me, it's frustrating even for me. Seems the only way I can express myself is through my cynical fits of rage. How much of a problem exactly is this? Should I be worried? Because really sometimes I just don't care.

White Lies - Unfinished Business

Back to the Old House

2009-08-11T11:11:00.001-04:00

Back to the Old House, originally uploaded by BaddyArt.

Taken in Nokesville, VA down Fitzwater Road.

FAIL

2009-08-07T11:07:00.005-04:00

I have never been so fed up with guys in my LIFE. Generally, overall I'd say I've had really good luck with my relationships. Sure, there's been some fucked up parts, but the guys I've been with up until now have cared about me. Ugh I can already tell this is going to be a typical womanly "why can't I find a good man?" rant. Whatever. I'll just cut to the chase.

I'm sick of this shit. The last d-bag was the most selfish, immature, self-absorbed piece of shit I've ever been with. But still I liked him. I know I know I know. Shut up! He had his sweet moments, but what it basically came down to was he only gave a shit about himself and just wanted to get laid. He views women as conquests and has no respect for them. UGH. Rant coming. He's manipulative, vindictive, and rude. He called one of my best friends the c-word. He never invited me ANYWHERE even though I took him to parties and shit all the time. He never has any money (jobless loser). The night I had my car wreck he said he would call me back but never did because he got distracted playing Left4Dead. He didn't even ask me if I was hurt or if I was ok. He's 25, but acts like a 14 year old trapped in a 45 year old's body. Has no job, no life, and lives in his mom's basement. He will never amount to ANYTHING.

Looking back in retrospect, really the only good thing he had going for him was the sex was decent and he had good taste in music. We shared similar interests, but that can only get you so far. You need someone with substance.

Edit: As I think of more things that piss me off about him I'll list them here. He stayed at my birthday party for only like 20 mins and then left without telling me. I'm pretty sure he left early so he could go to another party in Gainesville. On my actual birthday I gave him my extra concert ticket so he would go with me (and even then it was like pulling teeth) and I ended up buying HIM dinner. He never did get me a birthday present. (See: jobless loser). Another time he was supposed to come over, but then last minute said he couldn't b/c he "sprained his ankle" then I find out that he was at someone else's house watching a movie. He lied all the time. Oh yeah, a couple weeks ago he txted me that "CL fattie let me cum on her face." Classy!

Places I Want To Visit & Photograph

2009-08-04T12:46:00.005-04:00

I'm particularly a fan of photographing old, historic buildings as well as the outdoors and nature. The following have a good mixture of both. I'm sure in my ventures I'll be able to stumble upon some abandoned houses as well.

An ever-growing list...

Assateague Island National Seashore
Great Falls Park
Cumberland, Maryland
Sky Meadows State Park
The New York Botanical Garden
Middleburg, Virginia
Fredericksburg, Virginia
Bluebell Wood in Hertfordshire, England
Lambert High School, Lambertville, New Jersey
Hell House, Ellicott City, Maryland

Moving Forward

2009-07-29T22:10:00.002-04:00

I can only dwell on the "What could I have done differently?" doubts for so long. I tend to do that far too much in my life and only wish I had the capability to replay the past and make different decisions. It's time to pick up the pieces and move on to whatever lies ahead. I've always believed that we all choose our own path and though it may not be the outcome you had hoped for, many times it's not as bad as it may seem and sometimes it even works out for the best!

I'm really looking forward to tomorrow night (for some inexplicable reason) and this weekend is going to be crazy busy. I'm so excited to see my friends in Radford that I miss so much. I only wish they ALL lived closer, so that I could see them more often. Much love especially to Dave, Dawn, Anna, and Lauren who I get to see this weekend. Truly great friends who I am glad to have in my life and never seem to disappoint.

And now for my favorite song OF ALL TIME:

Bad Religion - Generator

Song Similarities

2009-07-24T12:02:00.004-04:00

3 songs with very similar intros. They're not exact, but pretty close. You really only need to listen to about the first 5 seconds or so to catch it. Just a musical observation I've made over time. Is it just me or does this style seem to be a popular entrance into a song?

The Ronettes - Be My Baby

Bats for Lashes - What's a Girl To Do?

My Morning Jacket - The Bear

I blame it on the coke and fasting

2009-07-19T23:41:00.003-04:00

Went to Ginza Japanese Steakhouse in Culpeper on my way to visit the parents. My old boss Brandon asked me, "So, what's your secret?" Ha, I go, "Which one?!" Ok, so I thought it was funny. Whatevergofuckyourself.

Everyone keeps asking me how I lost all my weight. I really didn't DO anything, so I don't know what to tell them. I've lost about 25 pounds since last December and I feel and look great, but don't really have a clue how it happened. I hate working out. I hate eating healthy. Hmm. The only thing I can really think of is the increase in stress and mysterious lack of appetite. I usually eat Ramen at least once a day and chicken burritos from Chipotle about once or twice a week. I know that shit can't possibly be good for you, right?

Argh... saw the ex today. I don't know what to make of it. I'm just gonna let it go. See where that takes me. No more dating for a while! I'm done. How I'm feeling ATM is that I'd rather be alone if I can't be with him and I don't give A FLYING FUCK what anyone has to say about that.

The Jealous Sound - Hope for Us

Almost Over

2009-07-15T11:48:00.002-04:00

My bad luck comes in waves. It's been a whirlwind of a shitstorm lately, but I have high hopes that things will begin to look up real soon.

Badly Drawn Boy - Something to Talk About

I drive fast in the slow lane

2009-07-13T13:26:00.017-04:00

I know that some people are still perpetuating the stereotype that online friends are creepy, sado-masochistic serial killers, but that's only true about some of my interwebs frans! Most of them are good, hardworking, caring individuals who have been there for me when my IRL friends flake out.

Drove out to Charlottesville last night to hang for a bit with my internet friend, Noel, who flew here from LA for some literature/poetry seminar thing @ UVA. Been buds with him since '01 when I first joined YT. My mom asked about him when I went to drop off the dogs and I told her "Don't worry Mom, he's gayer than Liberace at Burning Man." Noel found that quite entertaining. We went out to the only authentic Mexican restaurant we could find (apparently he was homesick since c-ville has like NO Hispanic community!) and chit-chatted about online gossip and what's going on in our REAL lives. He finally got his MFA and will be teaching lit at a community college.

In other news, I was fucking around with my flickr and decided to sporadically put everything on private view so that I was the only one who could see them. In doing so, I lost everyone who favorited my pics. BAH! So if you just so happened to favorite any of my flickr pix you might want to go back and re-fave them because I fucked up. I didn't realize that would happen. Oh well.

Also, in my brother's ongoing medical issues, he's having some kind of chest pains and the doctors think it sounds heart related so last week he had to be hooked up to all these electrodes and shit for 24 hours. Whenever he felt ill, he had to hit this panic button thing so that they could monitor his heart. I've been keeping in touch with him via txt and he says he's ok, but is still in a lot of pain. I guess it comes and goes, but when it hits him he described it as feeling like someone is inside of his chest and trying to break out with a sledgehammer. Sooooooo... I hope he feels better soon and they figure out what's going on with him.

Fleet Foxes - Ragged Wood

Our house in the middle of our street

2009-07-09T19:37:00.005-04:00

My house is just teeming with life! I just saw the tinniest leetle babeh bunny! He let me get pretty close to him before he scampered away. I see at least one rabbit in the yard everyday. There's also a couple of stray cats and my roommate Sidney says she keeps seeing a little gray kitten wandering around. Also, there's a whole fucking family of groundhogs living in my crawlspace. Yikes. I have to trap and release them at some point away from my domain because they're messing up the foundation of my house from tunneling beneath it. They're often in my front or side yard feeding on the grass and I'm very tempted to just run them over. Birds are always fucking chirping around here! HATE THEM! I hate birds. They're so damn loud! I really don't need to be waken up on a Saturday at 7 due to freakin' love making orgy sessions between a bunch of robins.

Oh did I mention the bugs? Yeah. They're everywhere.

Also, the neighbor behind me has dinosaurs. Well, not really. They're 3 German Shepherds, but at 2 in the morning when they're all outside barking like a bunch of morons then it sure does sound like a team of T-Rexes. What's the plural of T-Rex? T-Rexes? Rexs? Rexi? I give up.

Yes, Baddy Can Has Blog

2009-07-09T11:58:00.000-04:00

With the demise of deadjournal and my myspace blog I figured it was time to rekindle the illustrious love affair I have with writing all about myself. I often find I have too much on my mind that it would bore my facebook friends to tears and twitter's 140 character limit will simply not suffice.

In short, I need a new place to rant.

If you want to find out more about me feel free to visit the following:

BaddyArt: Artwork of Kristen M. Eddy
My Photography on Flickr
Follow BaddyArt on Twitter!
My Think Atheist Page